Touched

for the past few days, i’ve been rather emo at work :( coz of Miss A and Mr B.

but i blame no one except for myself. if only i dun bother so much abt other ppl’s affairs, it would had been a different story.

(Mr B likes Miss A, and he confessed to her. But Miss A told Mr B that she needs more time, and told him that it’s not a rejection. but Mr B sees it as a rejection. actually Miss A has liking for Mr B too, but she just hope to know each other more before diving into relationship.)

coz of their affairs, i’m actually rather close to Mr B as we tend to talk alittle more, then he would ask me to join him for lunch, or sneak out for bubble tea. Miss A became rather jealous when rumors kick in. and she started ignoring me, giving me all the cold treatment. sighs, i can understand her from her point of view, so i dun blame her, plus i’m just a temp staff, meaning i would be leaving soon. so i didnt want to create any more misunderstanding.

so when Mr B tried to know why i’m so moody, i told him not to ask anymore, coz i might just burst into tears.

later that night, he told me that he would scold Miss A for bullying me. after seeing that msg, i really burst into tears at home. coz i told him not to confront her or anything. but i’m rather touched by his act (to scold the girl he likes when i’m ‘bullied’ by the girl).

last night, i accompanied him to visit his clients, and we went for dinner after tt. through his act, find that he’s actually i really nice guy, very gentleman. there’s alittle 心动的感觉. but i know it’s impossible between both of us. plus i’m just a temp staff who is leaving soon. and he mentioned before, if he didnt start up the relationship with Miss A before he leaves, then there’s nothing in common between them after he left. and i believe the feelings i’m having is at that point of time. and i cant do this to Miss A.

sighs. in a good way, i’m leaving soon. thus, everything would be back in place eventually. they just need some time to adjust to the changes. hmmm, i wonder if anyone of them would miss me after i leave. tml would be my last day there, wonder how things would be like tml. kinda 不舍得 to leave, coz the ppl there is really quite nice/fun to be with, but 天有不散之宴席, there’s an ending to everything. perhaps they wont even rmbr me, after i go, hahaha

had my off-day today, so it’s like a day to get me back on track, telling me that it’s coming to an end, i shld let go of the emotions gotten/received from work. and getting me used to the life back without them. :( kinda sad, but it cant be helped either. but i’m really thankful and grateful to them, for letting my work experience there being a superb one. :D

GUYS!! I WOULD DEFINITELY MISS YOU ALL!!!! :DD

irritated!

O M G

i don’t why, but these 2 days my heart has been pumping like crazy.

>_< i hope it’s isn’t related to what i think it is.

gosh… fluttering fluttering fluttering. sighs.

today work was considered good, as not so busy, got a little time to  make short conversation with the PFCs.

wondering if i’m too much of a busybody, or simply concern about the work mates. coz i tend to ask abit more qns, and talk more than what is required in work. sighs. hopefully they dun see me as someone whom is really nosy. (though i know i’m ><) but i really can’t remain silent for too long, else i would feel that i’m living in another dimension.

really can’t communicate with my so-called partner at work. she dun talk at all, unless we ask her qns. she gives me a feeling like she’s from another planet. to be honest, i dun like her presence at work. sorry to say, but i dun think with her around, there would be any differences. she’s more of a passive person at work, while i think i’m an active one. well, at least i would make the first step or take the initiative to get work done, but i’m not saying she doesn’t do any work. and i believe she’s someone who would kind of like stab me at the back. >.<

she doesn’t talk much with the ppl there, so i dun think anyone would ask her to eat lunch together. told her before that we can’t eat at the same timing, but she still did. sighs. now i’m kinda marked by the branch manager le la. irritating!!!

then i think she’s the one that would like things to be in black and white. coz i told her that i’m having my off days on sunday. then she wanted to take off at the same day, and she simply told one of the SA that she didn’t take off on the previous sunday (which i did), and she wanted to take off for the coming one. she’s really irritating >< i really dislike working with her!

ha! but i think i sabo her by accident today, coz when i asked one of the manager to sign my timesheet, he asked me where’s my partner, as i think she didn’t ask him to sign, then i simply say she went off already (which is really the case). then the manager suddenly asked me if it’s 7pm, then i said yup, and he looked at the office clock, which just turned 7pm. opps! didnt mean to sabotage her. oh well, dun care, she didn’t ask, then i dun care either. plus we are now working in the society leh! pls wake up ur mind and stop leaving in ur own world, thinking that all things will be done beautifully for u. -.-ll

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!!!! not gonna let her spoil my mood!! lols.

anyway, the PFCs wanted to give me a treat before i leave!! (awwww.. so nice of them <3) hahaha

hopefully the friendship would continue as the work ended as they are really nice ppl. :)

sorry that i loved you

favorite song of the year.

emo-ing from work

he: did you work on sunday?

me: did you see me around?

he: oh, i never notice little things like this.

me: orh

my thought: #$%^&* i’m such a big ‘thing’ standing around the entrance, and you say never notice my absence?!

hais, yes, this is a comment from a work mate when we talked over lunch. had been in a temp position at place recently, but i’m really dun enjoy goin to work. :(

this comment really made me felt that my presence/ absence doesnt make any differences, the things i do isnt appreciated. in fact, the feelings i’m getting is that i’m not needed there!

sigh, why in the first place am i hired when the position is redundant?!?!

to be honest, i’m only trained to ONLY SIGHT certain docs, and was told i only need to do that. so naturally, there’s alot of things i duno what to do/say when customer approached me right?!

i’m trying to help, but u find me nuisance when i asked u qns on customer’s behalf.

i’m trying to learn, but u simply just shoo me off with “aiya, you duno where is it”

cant you show me how things can be done?!?!?!

if i’m nasty, i can simply say this is not within my job scope!!!!

as a senior, you failed to guide a newbie like me, and assume that i know as much as you do!!

if you think that i will screw things up, then dun hide behind the office door! plus, it’s YOUR duty to ans customers’ enquires, not MINE!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! really dislike reporting to work more and more each day.

just started for 4days, and i wished i had completely the job assignment which would last for 3 weeks. sighhhhs..

can’t deny the fact that there are some nice work mates, whom will help me, talk to me, ask me to join them for lunch. i’m really glad, coz their presence around me actually calm my frantic soul. :)

today was my 4th day there, and  i cried  in front of 2 of the better work mates. :X

didnt expect this to happen too, until one of them noticed that i’m seem to be really unhappy, and he started asking me, wad’s wrong. only then i felt that my mask was pulled off. and was overwhelmed by my emotions T______T

felt really unjust for things that happened during work.

if i’m properly product-trained, and i make mistakes, i would just suck my own thumb. but when i’m not trained, and you expect me to know, please slap yourself in the face!!

sighs, in short, this is the worst job i’ve gotten so far!

thanks for leaving such a strong impression of you in me!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

typed half way wanted to update on the happening things happened during the new year chalet count down with vin they all.

but i’m not a good writer, so shall just skip it.

one thing for sure!

I HAD LOTSA FUN THERE!!

sighs. all of sudden totally no mood to blog anymore :(

if only there’s someone who can read my mind. hais.

in need of happy pills!

this week has been and gonna be a happening week!!

so many program lined up. hahaha

after christmas and it’s new year already!!!

wow.. bidding goodbye to 2010 in less than 2 days!!! O.O

has been trying to meet up with friends to catch up as much as possible, but each session is never enough.

time always flies when we are having a good time.

more meet-ups please!!

 

hmmm..  experienced alot of hiccups during 2010, many regrets, lotsa fun, ups and downs umpteen times.

though some falls i can’t get over, but i know that i have to (TRY to) brave through it alone.

many times i wished for soul mate, not necessary a bf, but rather someone willing to share my joy and sorrow with, lend me a shoulder in times of need, and accompany by side when i just wan someone to be with me.

i know there are actually many friends out there willing to be there for me (hopefully not my one-sided thinking ahh XD)

but…. … i’m someone belonging to 慢热 type.  so it quite difficult for me to open up to others. especially i don’t quite like to appear as a book which can be simply read off by anyone.

i can be good listener, but i can’t be a good speaker.

it’s not that i dislike talking.. actually i DO like to talk, but sometimes knowing that there will be someone else who’re more eager to share, simply stop me.

就是开不了口   :XXX

till the day when i can let down the “boulders” in my heart, i would just bring them to bed every night :(

Say bye to single-child life :DDD and MERRY XMAS!!

HOHOHOHO

merry christmas to all!! :DDD

santa gave me the best gift that i’ve wished for :DDDDD

met up with hy, lester, vin, naz, clem and gf, and chenyong at jp earlier for xmas dinner. hm and gf came later for the movie..

nice meeting them again (though they frequent organise activity, but i always didnt turn-up *OPPS!* hahaha. only can say, well, timing not in phase with mine ma XDXD)

heh heh.. though at times i still feel awkward hanging around with them, coz there’s a long transition period in between and i’ve been avoiding every single outing organised. i’m glad vin never give up on me!! hahaha.. otherwise i dun think i will ever meet up with them for anything. and with him around i would be more at ease. XD

after dinner they went to watch the earlier timeslot for Gulliver travels. while i catch a later timeslot with father poh.

the movie wasnt that nice though, find it rather lame.

cant deny that there are funny moments, but still.. … … …

haha.

many awkward silent with father poh. >.<

perhaps coz too long didnt meet up. sighs.

distance does pull people apart. >.<

anyway, my elder bro, who went nepal came home today!!

it’s a surprise for all of us.

coz his flight suppose to be on 27th dec. :)

he cut short his trip by few days due to few causes.

– there’s riot going on over there.

– he misses us (awww.. hearts)

– the amount of cash he holding on was depleting super fast coz 为了 buy for me and my mum awesome Northface winter jacket (though it’s 水货 so much much much cheaper than buying in singapore, but for that price in nepal, he could buy him 30 good meals.)

awwwww… he’s really the nicer bro i could ever have :’)

his nice-ness could never be explained in words. *hearts

and he’s really thoughtful

how i wish i have a bf like him!! hahaha

loves the pics and videos he take

very tempted to post them online and proudly say “hey tt’s my bro” (especially the video on his bungee jumping)

awwww.. and the pic he took really like 世外桃源!!

humph! envy! i wanna go too!! XD

one of the amazing thing we talked abt is that, when he trekking at nepal, he met an ang moh trekker who shared his Grand Canyon trekking with him.

and before he say more, i told him that while i was waiting for the movie to start, there was a movie thriller on an ang moh guy who trek Grand Canyon and was trapped by falling rocks and blah blah blah.

and there was exactly the same thing the ang moh guy told my bro!!!

i’m like WOW!!

the world is getting smaller and smaller!!! hahahaha..

and it’s amazing what my bro has been through during his journey. it may not be the greatest adventure, but i will still proudly say “That’s my bro” hahahaha

he say that the next trip he planning to go egypt!

COOOOOOOOL~! wish i could go toooooo. :(

this is my best christmas ever! :)))

Holiday begins

YEAHHHH!!!

exams are finally over woooooooooohoooooooooo!!

and in less than 7 days i’m gonna say goodbye to 2010.

awww.. time flies soooooooo fast ><

felt that i didnt do much stuffs but yet another year is ending :((

hmmmm..

many thoughts in mind. but hard to find a starting point to begin.

tt’s the disadvantage for not updating frequent. grrrrr.. must try to update more since i’m “moved” to a new webbie.

new web, new beginning. still new to the function here. hahaha. not quite use to it though, but i just need to blog more often :DDD

anyway, 23rd dec, had my last paper. and it was a killer paper. sigh.

hoping the power of modification would not disappoint me XD

met up with claudia, shaun, guanhao and changyuan after my paper at plaza sing.

and  wow!! i guess for too long i’ve been staying at home to mug, all of sudden, i think i’m Demophobia. ><

it was really packed!! ><

had a great time chit chatting, update abt their experience and stuff. :))

thanks them all for the wonderful dinner and not forgetting the christmas presents!! :DDD

though my gifts for u all are small, simple and unexpensive, plus i didnt wrap it ><

but still hope u guys like it :DDD

ps: it’s really refreshing by smelling it.. :DDD

 

 

i’m a new person now. talk more freely, randomly, and at ease :DDD

Moved.

gosh! my blog space had been moved to wordpress.com   O.O

and i really don’t know how to use it!! ><

but oh well, there are more important things to do now!

in 4 weeks time, my examination gonna start, and this semester is ending!!! toooooooooooooooo fast!!

i’m not prepared yet!! ><

sighhhhhs..

tada~..

back to sch.. ><

gosh!
first day back to sch and nothing went on smoothly.. -.-""
1. when i was abt to leave my hse for sch, it started to rain suddenly.. so i went to get an umbrella and off i go.. when i reach ground level, the rain stopped.. -.-"""
2. at the bus stop was duper packed, and still, for some reason, the bus driver still dun allow standees on the bus, as a result, alot of students werent not able to get up the bus.. i wasnt squeezing or moving, but people from the back just keep pushing me up the bus.. LOLS!! this is the only thing then went pretty well for me i guess..
3. wanted to go to library to print some notes, but the queue was like "oh my tian ahhhh".. so went to SBS there to print.. but the printer network was down too!!!  siannnnn..
4. just as my friends and i tot that we were lucky for once, coz the guy at the counter there could help us print.. but he printed out the wrong notes for us.. and made us wait till we were late for lecture.. -.-"""""
5. head for lecture without notes.. siannnnn..

in short, today doesnt seems to be the right day to start goin back to sch.. ><

for the past few weeks have been busy working, dancing and working again like crazy.. and 不知不觉 sch reopen le!!! T___T
somehow felt that i didnt spend enough time to play around.. ><
(though i know for the 4mths holiday, i only spend the last 2-3 weeks
working intensively from 9am-6pm) and i know everyday i work, i would complain that i’m tired, this and that..
but at least, my mind is free from thoughts..
didnt know that time really flies
unknowingly.. :((
oh my tian ahhhhh..
need to 收拾心情 and start studying again.. :((
booooooohooooooo.. cannot fool around liao.. ><

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